I was baptized again roughly seven years ago.
Growing up as a Catholic and spending twelve years in Catholic schools, I received a lot of reactions, mostly negative, from family and friends. Many thought that my decision was for my then boyfriend whose religion was different from ours. But it wasn’t so. I even wrote a speech for my relatives of how I experienced God’s presence more in my life, and how this changed my view of things but I never got the courage to deliver it. I just prayed for the chance to testify my faith.
Even in my earlier college days, I already had spiritual and religion-related questions that bothered me. I spent years looking for answers through reading the bible and Christian materials, and talking with people from various religious sectors. My quest was beyond any type of relationship with another person. My decision to be baptized was my own, but I believe it was God-led.
Years passed. I now have a child whom we dedicated to the Lord. Then, no one asked why my son was not baptized but after my marriage broke, some started to ask why I haven’t gone back to the Catholic Church. Some also asked: “When will your son be baptized? How can he go to school and grow up without being baptized?”
For me, baptism is a proof of one’s knowledge of God, recognition of His lordship, and of one’s undying love and faith for God. It follows repentance and a dedication of your life to God. When you are reborn, you commit to follow the Lord and His teachings with all your heart, mind, and soul. In my view, this commitment– this conviction– is not done by one person for another. It is something done as a result of the Holy Spirit speaking to one’s heart. It is not really a human decision. When I was baptized, I did not see baptism as belonging to a church, although that will follow, but it was more of leaving behind your previous life and being born again in a life to be lived with God.
Fast forward to my present situation, having in-laws as a family of pastors and my family of devoted Catholics with many priest-friends, I feel caught up between formidable walls. But I only have God to listen to. I believe that everything will always, always, follow a personal relationship with the Lord. I am where my faith is growing, where my love for God is burning, and where I am able to put to use the gift of writing for God’s purpose. And that, for me, is what is important.
The main rule for me is to have the heart to choose God’s side and follow His lead. I will continue to seek the things which are above, and pray for guidance. In guiding my son, I pray for the Lord to lead my way and I am confident that the Lord will not leave us astray. We will always be pointed to the right way.
John 3: 1-7 There was a man of the Pharisees, named Nicodemus, a ruler of the Jews. 2 The same came to Jesus by night, and said unto him, Rabbi, we know that thou art a teacher come from God: for no man can do these miracles that thou doest, except God be with him. 3 Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God. 4 Nicodemus saith unto him, How can a man be born when he is old? can he enter the second time into his mother’s womb, and be born? 5 Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God. 6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit. 7 Marvel not that I said unto thee, Ye must be born again. 8 The wind bloweth where it listeth, and thou hearest the sound thereof, but canst not tell whence it cometh, and whither it goeth: so is every one that is born of the Spirit.